Thursday, August 6, 2009

I'm Sick of Waiting

I'm sick of waiting.

I'm sick of wondering.

I'm sick of being in a holding pattern. It doesn't suit my personality well nor that of Hottie Husband's.

We are workers and doers. We like move, to create, to do.

We can't do anything to move forward and it seems as if all doors are shut in our faces.

So we are waiting and sometimes it is totally awful.

Though I long to be transparent, there are details I cannot share.

But I can say that we were excitedly moving-
to Montana. To a sweet town that was on our hearts.

Then the economy hit and....

a year later

we are still here.

I don't know why this has all happened, but I do know there is a purpose in it. I also know that God is a provider and he is providing.

But, I am sick of waiting. I am totally done with this desert experience. I am done with the valley and long for the peak.

I am a whiny, complaining Israelite in the desert. I want the Promised Land - not this wandering and waiting. I am thankful for the manna provided so sweetly daily, but so desperately want to move on.

I know I need to wait on the Lord and not on the thing, but ugghhhh... forgive me

I am so sick of waiting.



18 comments:

Kelly's Ideas said...

I know what you mean...

Love,
Kelly

Amy said...

I hear ya...Keep your head up...it has to get better eventually *hugs*
~Amy~

Nancy said...

well i hope you get some good news soon!

Mel Heth said...

It's so hard to be stuck in a holding pattern. Keep on trying to enjoy the little moments you have. There might be days after you've reached the peak that you miss the valley a little. :)

Get Real Girl said...

Holding patterns are never easy. We have moved a couple of times and both came up rather abruptly. So I think in the back of my mind I am always thinking, "How long will we be here?" Even though I am always trying to be content where we are at.

Foursons said...

I totally understand and sympathize.

Farmgirl Paints said...

Whoa girl we are in the same boat. I posted about the same thing today. I am so weary from waiting. I don't know how much longer I can stand it.

Read Daniel. In my comments read Keystone. He told me to read Daniel. His comments teared me up and I think it's for you too.

Sheryl said...

oh i hear ya! what i love is that you know you are whining. there are some who complain but don't hear it. it gets old when we are waiting on the Lord, but it is so good to know that His plans are way better than ours.

completely different experience, but i have been waiting on the Lord for over two years now.

New England Girl said...

Waiting is the worst! And I can understand your frustrations. It gets to be so tough when something you want is suddenly out of reach for whatever reasons. I am keeping you in my thoughts and hope you get to that sweet little town soon.

takemetomaui said...

I understand.....waiting is one of the hardest things for me. Yes or no, just TELL ME ALREADY!!!

Praying for peace,
Lisa

LAURA said...

Waiting is definitely hard... but I also think that sometimes it makes what we waited for sooo much sweeter in the end. That said... sometimes you just have to complain anyways! I think we all hate the waiting, no matter what it is that we are waiting for.

denise said...

I'm so sorry. Waiting is hard, especially when it's about something as big as moving to another state! I'm praying for you.

I am SO not a patient person. But that helps me appreciate God's incredible patience with me.

Liz said...

Yeah...patience is NOT one of my strong points. You must be learning something...don't you hate it when God tries to teach us things? Good to know I am not the only one that complains :-)

Wow...I never expected you to long for Montana. I long for Maryland. Yeah, the desert thing has gone on long enough. Love ya, girl!

Helen McGinn said...

I'm kinda waiting to so I feel for you hon. Limbo isn't a good place to be. I hope it all resolves sooner rather than later, I'm sending you good karmic thoughts.
xx

Buddy and Krista said...

Friend, This post brought tears to my eyes...but I have to disagree with you on one point--you are the furthest thing from a whiner and complainer. Anyone whow knows you knows this. You are a great woman of strength and joy and grace--even in the midst of years like this. You shine. Love you.

Rachel said...

It is hard to wait. :(

I pray that you will rest in God's perfect grace, His perfect will, and His perfect timing.

Alyson (New England Living) said...

Been going through the same thing! We were planning on moving to Boston this summer. Alas, it will have to wait until next spring/summer.

Hope you get to Montana soon!

Shanda said...

I actually read your "It is well with my soul" post first and I have to agree all is "well with my soul" too; but waiting is difficult.

We were only supposed to live where we are at for 2 years and then move back to CO - a place we wholeheartedly still desire to return to - we've been here for almost 6 years now...we were just going to sell and move on our own back;and then the economy...I understand that "trapped" feeling.

The song, "While I'm Waiting" by John Waller says it so perfectly.

Blessings on you & your family "while you wait!."